WHY

Why did I try so hard if all that would result from the beginning …was the end?

Why did we continue with a relationship if you knew you only wanted to be was a friend?

Why did you let me fall if to catch me, you dint intend? But, I did, you did, we did…now losing faith in this slow cold wind.

I feel so cold from the excuses that now grow so old. But, you were so bold because your excuse was the next being told. I know what glitters aint gold. My lungs you hold. But act as if they’re too much like I made a heavy load.

Naw…maybe we are just walking two different roads. But Why?

Why is it no matter how hard I try, everything always proves to be a lie? Why is it no matter how hard I cry, no matter how long, my tears, they won’t dry?

Why did I once feel so high but now doomed like an angel who cannot fly….because I’ve fallen for this special guy. But too special too great…now saddened and feeling like I want to die.

I feel like bait. I thought the “likeness” was soooo great but I guess my guess was too late. Probably not intentional but I can feel your hate. But I’ve arrived at the gate. The platform of my life, future, my fate, and maybe it’s just not meant for us to be “soul mates”, so I might have to wait.

But at this rate? Why?

Man WHY do I have to feel this way? I guess you really wanted me to pay. WHY? Was it because of too many times calling you bay? Or maybe for the things that I did not say…MAN for me, it’s not going to be okay. Huh, WHY did you let me go on day after day? Or was it out of your hands? Did it just happen this was?

-February 20, 2008